Saturday, February 28, 2009 . 8:53 PM

28 feb 2009. the last day of the month of feb of the 2009th year that Jesus Christ was born. march is 1 day away. yay?

i seriously dont know what the hell am i thinking of now. my mind's a total blur. i dont know what is the cause of this confusion in my mind. it's just there. it took me 20 mins just to type out these 2 paragraphs of words.

what kind of person am i? that's the question for myself today. to me, i'm the person that's willing to be the one that is the 'punching bag' of anyone's frustrations, be the one who is willing to listen to all your problems. although i, myself may have some problems personally but i'm the kind where i bottle all of it up and just throw it away never allowing it to resurface ever again though it still lingers at the back of my mind. but who cares?!? with my heck care attitude, it doesn't matter whether it lingers there or stays there.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009 . 2:55 AM

i dont know why but i've been thinking about the 4 years in gyss.

we were innocent young kids when we first stepped into the school. now, it's a total different story.

i remembered my class 1e3 back in 2005. the first few days was so awkward, you knew no one and no one knew you. at that time i was thinking - why am i in this school? then after a few weeks of knowing each other, all hell broke lose. my class made a few teachers cry because of our behaviour in that first year. i didn't think i would change my ideology of the school but i did. i longed to go back each and everyday cause we weren't studying, we were playing.

a year just goes by so fast and then it was 2006. 2e3 was the class i was in and i never regretted to be in that class. as usual, we played everyday of the week but this year it was different. this time we got into more trouble than before. we were put on the discipline master's 'black list' and to what i know, my class is the only one till now that is black listed. however, my class still stick together and also got punished together.

i remember 1 incident our english teacher, mr. chua got fed up with us that he sent us to the parade grounds to stand as punishment. mr. chua then called the discipline master, mr. goh to handle us. mr goh shouted at us to put our finger on our lips cause we were still talking although we were punished. we stood there for about an hour before we were allowed to go back to class. while standing there, a senior took a picture of us standing there with his handphone. a funny memorable experience. our english teacher wasn't the only one that made us stand in the parade grounds as punishment. our history teacher, mr. lee did the same thing. a total of 8 times have my class been standing there as punishment.

does the book 'diary of ann frank' ring a bell? it does for my class. because of that book, around half the class had to copy the diaries in that book. each person used at least 7 A4 size paper written both sides. we copied from the start of school to the end and some stayed back till around 5pm just to finish copying. actually, it is because of us that we needed to copy so much. the initial punishment was to copy only 10 diaries but because we thought that he was lying about it that we decided not to copy and in the end needed to copy 20 long diaries instead.

i can never forget about the bond we had from secondary 1 and 2.

2007 came in a flash and i was posted to 3e1. 2007 was a joker year. why would i say that you may ask? because my class had many funny people that everyday you would hear laughter without fail. in that year no one was serious (not counting the few exceptions, there were still some serious people in the class). everyday we were either laughing at this or laughing at that. martin was the main joker of our class, he made the class 'alive'. we got into trouble as usual but that became so predictable.

our physical education lesson (p.e) was the bomb. normally, the p.e teacher would ask the class to do 20 mins of warm-ups before playing the 'games' as we called it but my class was different. we told him that we just wanted to play the games straight and not waste time doing warm-ups and he agreed to let us do as we will. every lesson of p.e from then on was just straight playing the games.

there were many more incidents but im lazy to type it out. if i would to type it out, my post will be damn long. as if it's not long enough. haha.

the 'not serious' us managed to get into 4e1 the following year and 2008 begun. after being not serious in secondary 3, we decided to be serious this year since it is the major year for us. we tried, i must say tried to be serious. it was just 10 months to the major exams. somehow, we weren't really serious at all. we still played as usual even when it was 1 month before the exams. however, somehow we managed to survive the 'o' levels.

2 days after our last paper was the prom night held at yio chu kang country club. it was most fun day of all i might say. with pictures taken with teachers and friends for remembrance and games played at the venue. it was a night to remember.

these 4 years i had in gyss was fulfilling and packed with so much laughter.

and now i shall jump to the present, 2009. still waiting to register to republic poly in march and to the start schooling again in april. hope my years in my new school will be worth remembering.

Saturday, February 14, 2009 . 3:51 AM

14 of feb is here again. Happy Valentine's Day to anyone who is reading this.

im listening to a song right now by Snow Patrol, 'You could be happy.

'You could be happy
And I won't know
But you weren't happy
The day I watched you go

And all the things
That I wished I had not said
Are played on loops
Till it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you
How we were
But not our last days of silence
Screaming, blur

Most of what I remember
Makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking
Out the door

You could be happy
I hope you are
You made me happier
Than I'd been by far

Somehow everything
I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment
It's all not true

Do the things
That you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back
Don't think, just do

More than anything
I want to see you go
Take a glorious bite
Out of the whole world'

this song shows how much i regret doing unwanted things to those friends that cared for me before. those regretful words that i said and the actions i've done. 'once the damage is done, it can't be undone.' my greatest regret.

shall end here.